Was Gill Feildings Theory right?

Spent the last few months working virtually every day, so no new posting were made.

Perhaps the Gill Feilding thing actually worked???

Summer is officially over!

Summer is officially over, but before I put away the lawn mower I had ne last run over of the lawn. It caught a bit of loose concrete paving so the blade had to be replaced.

This gave me the opportunity to pop into a little lawnmower repair shop in my old town - found at www.Bilstonlawnmowers.co.uk who kindly replaced the mowers blade for me.

Woolworths Transforms into Argos!

Remember how I had said the local home town was begining to resemble to last recession?

Well, after Woolworths closed down,there shop remained empty for several month. But over the last couple of months a occuopant has taken over.

A new Argos store is due to open today in the old Woolworths premise, displacing the smaller book and collect service they already had a little further down the street.

Good luck to Argos!

Just because it's free don't mean it's easy!

Anyway the crunch:

Spent much of last week sort the bills, receipts etcetera out as this always seem to allow the 'universal flow of financial energy' to come into my purse. It's a principle i learn from Gill Fielding several years ago at one of her earliest workshops in London. She demonstrated with a set of scales how when your bills and accounts are jumbled the scales are uneven. it works with your unconcious beliefs and mindset too. Thoughts and action: once they are in balance the scales come into balance. throughout the day she had a set of scales at the back of the room, when magically evened themselves out by the end of the day.

Your unconscious mind knows you have stuff to deal with and perhaps its giving you time to sort out your assets and bring your paperwork into order.

So shortly after begining sorting the financial jumble out, I found the much needed car that will take me to work to earn an income; when i get a job. I also found a forgotten bank account with just enough money in it to buy the car, put petrol in it for a few weeks and get road tax and insurance at the end of the month.

So I've appled to a couple of agencies so that I can get some work rolling in - but they need CRB money upfront first :( CASH! None of them want to stump up there own cost first, and they can't even guarantee work. As I made my way to the cash point, I made a diversion, entered the stream of oneway traffic and somehow found my way home. I think I'll wait until after the interview for the permanent position next week.

During that interview, she delightedly told me of the venues they had available.... all places I had previously worked going back over eighteen years. After all these years, are they still having retention problems? why? dead end jobs? I could hear part of myself saying, 'do it for a few months and move on'... "be a bit more strategic this time"... the other part of me knew ...

I don't want to accept my career path...RESISTANCE... I got on at the wrong junction early on, and there doesn't seem to be any exit roads or turning off points. It's an easy drive, but completely unchallenging and unstimulatng. I wish I could settle for being robotic ... but I can't...it's just not in my nature.. However, it does have the advantages of reduced stress, comfort, predicatablity and security. There's that part of me talking again! The other part of me wants some FUN! and that comes with the unexpected, the unpredictable, taking risks and being a bit uncomfortable now and then. Unfortunately, being a bit uncomfortable seems to have become an enduring condition.

A compromise - Controlling the Risk.

So looking back at my mass of jumbled reciepts, bills and unfinished paperwork, I suppose it's time to sort out how I'm spending my time as well as my money (or rather the banks money) and get a clearer perspective on what I ougth to be worth.

No doubt the balanced equation would detail, that I have clearly undervalued myself for many years and now it's me who is paying the cost.